Deary diary

Ya Allah I leave everything up to you. While I may know what I want, only You know what I need. You know what’s best for me and I trust that. So Ya Allah, I ask you to grant me what’s best for me and keep away that which will not benefit me.

Sep 25 2011

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Ok banyak kerja tergendala. Queen of procrastinating. -__-. I feel life is becoming harder and harder. Its not getting easier. Balik rumah mak potpet ni…pergi kerja ngn patients, colleagues and doctors. I’m so tired. I’ve to save up, nak hujung tahun nak bayar insurans kereta…soo no more blanja2. Insurance civic lg satu xterlibat kot..lemak berkrim la sume eden nak tanggung. yet org tua suke bazir2…haih. Aku ni siap makan buah je tgh hari…

Sep 21 2011

kereta bayar full skg. haih.
duit..duit duit…

I dont think I can do this. RIMAS.

Aug 14 2011

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Aug 14 2011

Awak call saya banyak2 kali time saya TGH oncall. Saya rejek 2 kali. Saya reject! saya ni tgh oncall. I was working. I was on the line with a doctor regarding a patient PCM poisoning. I was explaining the NAC protocol. Yet, you keep calling. Dont you understand? My work is as serious as your work, I bet my work is more serious than you work is. Mine is saving life. Then you texted me, Urgent. pick up! Then you called, with that ‘tone’, “Kenapa you rejek I call? ” “Knapa b? hello? something happned?” ”tepon I rosak. I rasa batt die..bla3” -_____-. Seriously?? Seriously?
Saya call sepanjang malam. text you the whole night. Not the whole night of course, sorta.. But I kept calling and still I cant get thru. I was worried. Then later I found out, you turned off your hp, as ur didnt bring your charger, so you wanted to save the batt. Then I asked u simple question, “Is it hard just to text me that u wanted to shut it off?” You cant answer.
When each time I wanted to tell you something about my day when i called, you dont seem to be interested. I was sad, I just want somebody to listen. I dont ask much. Seriously. As if I dont matter. I dont matter? Am I?
Since we started fasting, I keep asking, I mean not that keen, but I did asked few times whether you wanted to iftar with me. I asked if u were free today. You said that you had to meet somebody in Melaka and you need to send Naim to this school in Pilah. Ok then. I get it. Then I texted u where you are, you said that you’re then on the way, Aiman asked you if you wanted to buka puasa with him. You said yes. You never asked what time I finish my work and where I will iftar at? As if you never care. Seriously? I dont matter right? I’m not as beautiful as your exgirlfriend were. I dont know how. I did try my best I can be with. Yes, I did.

I’m nothing. I feel like disappearing into the thin air. I cant imagine if you leave me in the end? Or I cant imagine if I’m leaving eventually.

LONELY NYE.

Apr 16 2011

Deary diary

I never said this before

Ya Allah I leave everything up to you. While I may know what I want, only You know what I need. You know what’s best for me and I trust that. So Ya Allah, I ask you to grant me what’s best for me and keep away that which will not benefit me.

Good week. Almost

I dont think I can do this. RIMAS.

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LONELY NYE.